today was bad
Today was more difficult, but, to be expected and I imagine Monday will be downright hellish. But, let’s face it – we’ve been 100% A+ perfect parents up until this point and we need to give him something to hate us for. This is all in God’s modern-America plan… parents selfishly have children to create meaning in their lives. Parents ignore children while they work to buy material $#@! that they don’t need. Children grow up in a self-obsessed, MTV-laced haze but, decide to buck the system and save the world. So, see – it all works out in the end!
Obviously I am distraught and coffee-deficient and unable to write coherently this morning.
Happy Friday.
Listening: Marnie Stern
I remember this all too well and I feel so bad for you. It is just heartwrenching. Yes, the second and third days are harder as the novelty of the new things to play with wears off a bit and I think Monday’s are hard for everybody – preschoolers, high schoolers, college kids, adults, etc. so just hang in there!
It’s one of the first Lettings Go you’ll have to endure and one of the hardest. In a sick and selfish way, sometimes the “good days” are worse than the “bad” ones. You’re not a bad mother; you’re leaving him in a good place where he’ll learn and thrive. Remember how you kept telling me, when Amelia was tiny and colicky, that it got better after the first sixth months? This gets better, too – and in a lot less time.
thank you ladies!! it will and already has gotten better… no tears when he left me this morning and only a few short ones at school… he will be fine. he will be fine. he will be fine. he will be fine. he will be fine. he will be fine. he will be fine. he will be fine…